My Very First Love我的初恋 Yes this may be surprising， I was only 13 years old that time. But， don't know how or why it happened to me so early. I fell deeply1 in love with a guy， to think was annoying 2 months ago.
It was 1997， in Chittagong， Bang- ladesh， moved to a new apartment in a new area. So， after few weeks have passed， I started going back to school， since it was during Ramadan we moved. Well， I made some new friends in the neighborhood. This girl who was always hanging out with， her name was Ivy2.
One day when I was going to school， I bumped3 into Ivy on the way out of my building， and she was standing4 next to this guy， he lived in the building right beside mine. He said “Hi” to me， asked each other “how are you” and blah blah， then I had to leave. But I noticed that guy was looking at me. It was a different kind of look， look with love in his eyes. Few days later， back from school， he is standing in his balcony5， and smiling at me. If he is not around， and one of his friends see me， they start to yell6 out his name. Oh yeah， by the way， his name was Mamun.
So， I was very annoyed7 by those things. And I even told Ivy to tell Mamun to stop these foolishness. After my exams were over， jump from one to another.
Once I was reading a book， to their roof and he looked at me， and smiled. OH MY GOD! took me away. I smiled back at him， to smile at each other whenever we saw each other， but never had a chat. I was sure that he liked me a lot，， anytime he would see me on the roof from his balcony， he came up to the roof right away. I fell in love with him very deeply. I was surprised that I did. The feelings I had was so beautiful and made me so happy.
to my roof talking. As you know， in Bangladesh rumors8 go around so fast. When we talked， I saw deep love in his eyes. I always smiled at him; I didn't talk to him much. Still， life was going on so wonderfully. Mamun never told me he loved me. I thought that was， I was 5/6 years younger than him.
Very soon， I found out that me and my family are leaving Bang- to Canada. I was devas- tated. I cried all night but there was nothing to do. When Mamun found out， he asked me on the roof， if it was true. When I said yes， he asked how long will I be in Canada. The answer was maybe forever， we were going to settle9 in Canada. He looked depressed10， all he said was “Oh”， then I told him out flight date.
The next month， it was Ramadan again. Mamun came to say good bye to me on the roof， he was leaving to spend his Eid with his family. That day， I was so sad， I felt like I lost something very important in my life. We said goodbye to each other， he said he thinks I am such a sweet girl， he hopes I have a great life in Canada. Oh my god， I couldn't hold myself， I think my eyes became watery11. I didn't want him to see that I was crying. I said “you too” and tried to smile and left the roof right away.
That was the last day I ever saw my first love. Now 4 years later， here I am in CANADA. I have guy in my life now， whom I am deeply love with after Mamun. I never lose him.
I am ... over Mamun now. Everytime I remember those days， looking at each other on the roof， talking， I feel really down. I wonder where he is now， my first love.